Today is exactly my 2nd week of rendering my last 30 days. I've accepted it already but hasn't drafted any plans yet. Next week, I'll be on leave and perhaps the seashore and different environment can help me think things over. I wanted to be with my mom and dad this time. It's only with them that I feel I'm never alone. Before my graduation in high school and going to college, I had some introspection of sort thinking how my life would be in college as I look at calm and peaceful sea. Can I make it? Shall I make a difference after 5 years? Though I haven't finished my engineering course, I'm happy cause I am still complete.No regrets, only leassons well learned.
What I learned through this?
No matter what shocking and devastating news might come, compose and get hold of yourself. Allow this to sink in yourself first. Cry as hard as you want and can. We all need to cry at some point of our lives. This could be the right time. If you feel like don't crying then that would be fine. Denial will always be there and that's perfectly normal. You may even feel hatred and anger but never let them stay longer in you heart. Instead, look at the brighter sides. If I feel I've completely done my part with justice, then that's enough. Learn when enough is enough. I may be losing my job but lessons and experiences I gained through those years will be treasured. I don't dwell much on the negative sides. I look at it like a glass half full rather half empty.
I am creating a not-so-fully equipped back up plans. I hope to gain more strenght and wisdom that after my much needed vacation. All this I shall I pray to the Lord almighty. Amen.
3 comments:
God is with you.
hey baby girl, how are you? ive missed you.. hope you are doing well!
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@yuli - I'm trying to be okay but with God's grace, I know I will be okay. Thank you!
@izdihir - thank you :)
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